So I have been in Spain for 4 days now. It´s been fun, nothing out of this world. I have kind of broken my own promis to isolate myself from the U.S., but I´m more than ok with it. Good conversations have taken place and I´m feeling pretty good. I really needed this vacation for sure. I have managed to stay away from facebook and twitter for the most part. I am enjoying taking random pictures around the city and will be tourist-driven for the next 4 days. I am excited to go to a couple of vineyards as well as the Futbol Club Barcelona museum. FCB is my favorite soccer team so that should be fun to see stuff of theirs from the past.
To say I´m in a much happier place is an understatement. It is amazing how much honest conversations, whether with yourself or others, can truly help you. It has helped a lot of my overthinking, solved a lot of my internal struggles, and just cleared my mind a lot. I´m sure I could have achieved this while at home, but it surely would have been a much longer road. Being away and able to make a conscious effort to help myself has been key.
I think even when I´m back I will attempt to not be all over Facebook and Twitter. I find I am too absorbed with it. Also I want to be able to ignore things I do not want to know, which is virtually impossible while continuously being on social networking sites. It really is something to be done in moderation, as all things are. If people were half as interested in their own thoughts and feelings as well as their friend´s, and true communication still took place, people would be way better off. That´s my opinion anyways.
I really don´t have much to say today, which is more because Í don´t have the quiet I need to write. Maybe something more will come in the next couple of days, and I can truly sit down and ramble some good stuff.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Friday, December 23, 2011
#003
So today is the day I leave on vacation. I must say, this vacation is much needed. I feel drained both physically and emotionally. I just look forward to being away from it all. Although I'm sure I will have access to facebook, twitter, and all of that social media, I will try my best to not look at it. Although, I hope to take this trip again someday alongside someone else, my time there will be consumed with selfishness. I will go be a tourist, I will go for runs where no one else I know will most likely go, I will take many pictures, and I will do A LOT of thinking. Hopefully this is a good trip.
As always, I board a plane ready for whatever may happen. Many variables could lead to my death or injury. I'm ok with this. Don't get me wrong, I'm in no way suicidal, just ok with the possibility of my own death. I can say I've already accomplished more than many people my age have. I can't say I'd miss anyone as so many people say that when talking about death. The fact of the matter is, you're DEAD you can't miss anyone. Hopefully if the tragic happens, I'll be remembered more for the good than the bad.
I have lived my whole life without regretting anything, but this year brought my first. It's a hard pill to swallow really. I regret how it turned out. This is just my path though, I try to keep remembering that. I try to tell myself that what's meant to be will be. So hopefully this new year brings a better more focused me. I already feel more mature and have a different outlook on things than I did six months ago. We'll see what happens.
I recently read about a study saying that those who listen to music more, are often more prone to depression. I think this is not a fair statement. I think those who listen to music more often are more thoughtful and introspective. Sure we may be more prone to being sad, but it's because we look within ourselves and pay attention to our surroundings. Not to say those who don't listen to music a lot don't, but music helps bring everything out. There is a song for everyone. Everyone can relate to something that has been written and put to music. Music can inspire joy just as much as it can cause sadness. So as far as this study goes, I think it's a bit generalized and doesn't quite look at exactly what the cause is.
So that's about it for today. I will try to post from abroad. As there will be much thinking going on, I'm sure I'll have something to write about. Hope you enjoyed this. Just another ramble session. Another Minute With Me. If you feel like commenting, feel free. Just don't be disrespectful.
As always, I board a plane ready for whatever may happen. Many variables could lead to my death or injury. I'm ok with this. Don't get me wrong, I'm in no way suicidal, just ok with the possibility of my own death. I can say I've already accomplished more than many people my age have. I can't say I'd miss anyone as so many people say that when talking about death. The fact of the matter is, you're DEAD you can't miss anyone. Hopefully if the tragic happens, I'll be remembered more for the good than the bad.
I have lived my whole life without regretting anything, but this year brought my first. It's a hard pill to swallow really. I regret how it turned out. This is just my path though, I try to keep remembering that. I try to tell myself that what's meant to be will be. So hopefully this new year brings a better more focused me. I already feel more mature and have a different outlook on things than I did six months ago. We'll see what happens.
I recently read about a study saying that those who listen to music more, are often more prone to depression. I think this is not a fair statement. I think those who listen to music more often are more thoughtful and introspective. Sure we may be more prone to being sad, but it's because we look within ourselves and pay attention to our surroundings. Not to say those who don't listen to music a lot don't, but music helps bring everything out. There is a song for everyone. Everyone can relate to something that has been written and put to music. Music can inspire joy just as much as it can cause sadness. So as far as this study goes, I think it's a bit generalized and doesn't quite look at exactly what the cause is.
So that's about it for today. I will try to post from abroad. As there will be much thinking going on, I'm sure I'll have something to write about. Hope you enjoyed this. Just another ramble session. Another Minute With Me. If you feel like commenting, feel free. Just don't be disrespectful.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
#002
So this should be common knowledge, but it's amazing how true it is. Dialog makes everything better. Communication is the foundation. Sure it might not be towards the goal that you hope to achieve, but opening up the lines of communication is huge. It's almost as if a flip has been switched in me this last week. I feel like I'm coming back to normal. It's been pretty rough, but just these simple couple of conversations have made all the difference. I feel I'm in a much better place now. I'm not expecting to be able to talk every single day, that's just not going to happen, but a single word response is much better than ignoring. That goes for everyone, it's not pointed at any one person.
I recently noticed someone's posts had been sad for a couple of days, so I asked them if everything was alright. They were shocked that I noticed or cared. I think that's pretty important to do. I'm not telling you to stalk someone or troll their pages or anything. Just notice things. Who knows what someone is going through? Who knows if you'll be the only person to notice? What if no one else asks them about it? You could be that difference in their day. This isn't usually the case, but you could even save someone's life. Just be aware. Don't get so caught up in your own life that you can't see beyond it. I've definitely been guilty of being a selfish person, but I'm working on that.
So that's about it I guess. Just a couple of things that had been floating around in my mind today. In other news, I finished my last assignment for this semester. Class tomorrow, Spain on Friday. I'm so happy to be done! Comment if you'd like, just don't be a jerk.
I recently noticed someone's posts had been sad for a couple of days, so I asked them if everything was alright. They were shocked that I noticed or cared. I think that's pretty important to do. I'm not telling you to stalk someone or troll their pages or anything. Just notice things. Who knows what someone is going through? Who knows if you'll be the only person to notice? What if no one else asks them about it? You could be that difference in their day. This isn't usually the case, but you could even save someone's life. Just be aware. Don't get so caught up in your own life that you can't see beyond it. I've definitely been guilty of being a selfish person, but I'm working on that.
So that's about it I guess. Just a couple of things that had been floating around in my mind today. In other news, I finished my last assignment for this semester. Class tomorrow, Spain on Friday. I'm so happy to be done! Comment if you'd like, just don't be a jerk.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
#001
So I decided to pull the trigger on this, thanks to Dianna for nudging me to just do it. Guess I might as well find something semi-productive to do on my computer. So the last couple of months have been trying. I recently realized I'm super excited for this new year to begin. I'm not normally one to be excited about the new year or make resolutions or anything, but this year is different. I look forward to what 2012 will bring. I'll have my A.S. all wrapped up and will be transferring to another school. Not quite positive where I want to go yet. Who knows where I will end up. I also look forward to starting a new job and getting everything rolling again. This is such a cliche resolution, but I need to be healthier. Need to be -20lbs at least, with that number eventually growing to -30 if all goes well. It sounds like a lot, but I'm fairly confident I can do it. Just as long as I don't run into my ugly friend known as "no motivation". Guess we'll see what happens.
My new year will begin with a long overdue trip to Spain to visit relatives. It will be a nice two weeks away from everything. Hopefully I will not have too much access to Facebook and Twitter. I look forward to visiting a couple of Vineyards and doing all of the site seeing I did as a child, but through the eyes of a 25 year old. I'm excited to see as much of Gaudi's work as I can. I'm excited to roam around and be a tourist in this city that had me for the first 3 1/2 years of my life. I plan on taking lots of pictures. Hopefully I follow through with that.
Hope is a funny thing. It can affect one in so many ways. There are those that hope based on religion. The hope that something "up there" is looking after you and your loved ones. Then there's the hope that "everything will be ok". Sometimes that is all people have to hold on to. Then there's that hope for something that ends up holding you back. That hope that is keeping you stagnant. You have to just let go of those. It's quite easy to say, but so many times you don't even know it's happening, or you just can't shake it.
A long time ago I started expecting nothing from people. It's much easier than "hoping" for a certain outcome. Too many times you build up expectations only to be let down. It's much easier to fall from a sidewalk than from a building. I understand this is a bleak outlook on life, but it's my outlook. You don't have to agree with it, just understand it. I expect, or at least try to expect, absolutely nothing from people. If they happen to surprise me, so be it. If not, then that's just what I expected.
Anyways, I guess this first post is indicative of what you'll see here. Just some rambling. Enjoy. Feel free to comment or add. Just don't be disrespectful.
My new year will begin with a long overdue trip to Spain to visit relatives. It will be a nice two weeks away from everything. Hopefully I will not have too much access to Facebook and Twitter. I look forward to visiting a couple of Vineyards and doing all of the site seeing I did as a child, but through the eyes of a 25 year old. I'm excited to see as much of Gaudi's work as I can. I'm excited to roam around and be a tourist in this city that had me for the first 3 1/2 years of my life. I plan on taking lots of pictures. Hopefully I follow through with that.
Hope is a funny thing. It can affect one in so many ways. There are those that hope based on religion. The hope that something "up there" is looking after you and your loved ones. Then there's the hope that "everything will be ok". Sometimes that is all people have to hold on to. Then there's that hope for something that ends up holding you back. That hope that is keeping you stagnant. You have to just let go of those. It's quite easy to say, but so many times you don't even know it's happening, or you just can't shake it.
A long time ago I started expecting nothing from people. It's much easier than "hoping" for a certain outcome. Too many times you build up expectations only to be let down. It's much easier to fall from a sidewalk than from a building. I understand this is a bleak outlook on life, but it's my outlook. You don't have to agree with it, just understand it. I expect, or at least try to expect, absolutely nothing from people. If they happen to surprise me, so be it. If not, then that's just what I expected.
Anyways, I guess this first post is indicative of what you'll see here. Just some rambling. Enjoy. Feel free to comment or add. Just don't be disrespectful.
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